So Sunday...had a bit of a meltdown. I went to the closet to get ready for church. Decided that it would be fun to wear the dress I wore at my wedding shower (in MARCH) to church. BIG MISTAKE. I try on the dress which does NOT fit...too tight...NOT a good thing. I can feel the tears coming but I push through and chose another outfit...that is also a bit tight. Still not helping the situation. Eric was sick so I was on the way to church by myself. And the flood fell. Tears EVERYWHERE...I was trying to pull it together the WHOLE way to church. No success. Feeling like a failure and all that. So I get all the way to the PARKING lot of the church and turn around and come home. Eric looked at me kinda funny when I first walked in until he saw the tears. Poor guy, had to deal with the craziness that is me.
But I learned several things from this situation after listening to the wonderful words of my husband, my Mom and my sister:
- The advesary will do ANYTHING to keep me from going to church. And Sunday he won...DANG IT!
- It is still in my control to lose the weight I have gained. Since getting married Eric and I have become more 'relaxed' and hence...weight gain.
- I am not a failure. My weight does NOT define who I am...although it does make it easier or harder to get around let's be honest.
- When things get outta control...go back to the basics. Focus on little improvements to get back to wear you need to be.
- Prayer is powerful. And it works...and I HIGHLY recommend it. :)
- To have a loving family around is a great blessing. One that I do not take for granted.
- Water IS my friend...I need to drink.
- Sugar is NOT my friend...I need to run away from it.
- I have to believe in myself. AND finally...
- It doesn't matter where you are when you start...no matter how bad you think things are...as long as you START.
2 comments:
Well you're already a better person than me...if nothing fit I wouldn't have even left the house. But you got to the parking lot and that counts for something! Just take it one day at a time and remember I'm there for you!
I'm so sorry you had a rough day. Isn't it terrible when days like that hit you? It is good that you could sit down and figure things out though, I tend to bottle things up, which is much worse. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help.
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